time to freak out!!

two tests and one bloody difficult assignment due next week!!
and i am not prepared for any of them!!
i really wish i could scream my head off. yeah, like screaming would help completing my essay.

anyways,
i bet everyone has their own place where they are most comfortable at.
the place that you really like to spend your time with.
the most peaceful or fun place for you.
without anything to disturb you.
for example, the gym, the mall, the library, your own room, the beach etc

well for me,
it's the kitchen.

yup guys, i like to be in the kitchen.
(but i dont like it when it's messy with other people's stuff.is it so hard to clean up after you're done cooking?? kebersihan itu sebahagian daripada iman ok people)

the thing is,
i like to be in the kitchen alone.
if i said i'm going to cook, that means, nobody else is allowed to go to the kitchen with me (well, except for the other housemates who don't share their food with me).
anybody who has been friends with me and even lived with me should know this particular rule really well by now:
no one is allowed to "help" when sha is in the kitchen(her own kitchen, that is).

i don't need "help".
if i do, i will ask for it.
but if i didn't, don't ever volunteer to "help".
if i said "no" for the first time, that's it.
no means NO.

but i guess some people just don't get it.

i don't know why it pisess me off so badly, but it did.
i just couldnt help it,ok.
i'm pretty much like mum who always send me away coz she claimed that i'm "too slow" and it "slowing down her production" or something like that.
but i get it.
if you're not familiar with my kitchen, you wouldn't even know where i put my stuff. and it annoys me when people keep asking the same question(where do you put this and this?) again and again and again.
that is why, i prefer to cook alone.
and that is why i rarely volunteer to help to cook at other people's house.
(aside from the fact that i'm pretty lazy to help too ;P)

on top of that,
i've become really self-conscious if other people watching me cooking.
and i truly despise these questions:
"msk ape tu?" (suke hati ak la nk msk apeeeeee. yg penting halal ok)
"oh, msk ni kne letak tu ek? x penah la pule ak tgk org msk mcmtu. mak ak x letak bla3" (mak ko, mak ko la. ak msk style laen suke hati laaa. dh terang lg bersuluh, i'm not your mother. aduhai)
"knape kne wat cmni, peliknye bla3"
"eeeiii.. manede org letak tu dlm tu bla3"

hello people.
different people, different cooking style.
it's not like i dont know what i'm doing.
if you don't like it, just keep your mouth shut.
if you want to ask questions, find a better way to ask without sounding like you're criticizing that person.

having other people observing me when i'm cooking usually have a pretty bad effect on:
1. me. haruslah emo yg terkire.
2. the food. will not taste as good as i imagined it should be (dh msk tgh marah.apekah.and terlebey nervous babe)

so there you go.
i'm sorry if i offended anyone,
i just want to clear things up.
for my future housemates (i dont know who laa)
don't come near me when it's my turn to cook!(ade lg ke org nk jd housemate ak pasni?)


(matila nk wat ape kalu mak mentua nk jugk dtg mnyibuk tgk org msk ke ape ke)