life is a journey, not a race

now that I have turned 24,

still unemployed,

unmarried,

still lives with the parents,

acting like a child,

being treated like a child,

i have lots to complain about life.

how life is unfair to me

how far behind i am in life

most of my friends have achieved so many things by now

they have been working for at least a year now,

some of them have cars (heck, they can even afford flashy cars)

some of them are no longer on the singles market

and even had their own babies

while here i am
sitting at home

bored

frustrated

still uncertain of the future
it kinda sucks to not have absolute control of your future
and yes, i do know that i am not the only one .

while having fun tumblring,
i came across this phrase "life is a journey, not a race"
(i don't know where this quote comes from, but it doesn't really matter, does it?)
and then it suddenly occur to me,
why am i so stressed out that I am still not working?

who says that i should be working by the age of 24?
it's not that I'm not qualified, i just took a longer road in obtaining a degree.
who says that i should have babies by now?
am I such a worthless human being for not having all that?
of course not

I believe that God has His own plans for everyone

He knows what's best for us

so what if we still stay at home and have no other responsibilities?
that's not really bad.
at least you still have time for yourself and family

what's important is to learn and reflect from this whole journey

what you have been through up to this point
i might not have been fully employed just yet
but i have worked at different places, doing different kind of jobs
and that's something to be proud of
the kind of experience that others might not have

so in the end,
just relax, take it easy
enjoy the moment
there's no need to rush
it's not like we have to compete for the first prize in life.

urgh.

work-shy!!!

(and it's waaaay better than sleepify :P)

never forget

a reminder for me in the future
in case if ever i feel like giving up.

i hope i will continue being the "fun", "sporting" and "caring" teacher for years to come.

i have doubts

uncertain

one thing i've learned during this practicum is that you can never be so sure about the future
you can always planned your lessons beforehand
you went all out planning the best lessons, filled with creative activities yada yada
but you can never be so sure that the lesson will be carried out successfully
because you can't predict the kids behaviour
they might be total angles today
but tomorrow they could changed into some unmanageable lil monsters instead

you can never be so sure that you can do exactly like you've planned
there are many factors that affect the students' behaviour such as the weather, time, their workload, what happend in the previous class etc .
something that you have no control over.

the same concept of uncertainty applies to life in general:

-you planned to go out for a jog and suddenly the rain pours in
-you like the blouse and planning to buy it but they don't have it in your size
-you fell in love and planning to have a future together but your family disapproved of that person

there are always unpredictable circumstances that could ruined your plans.
but that doesnt mean that we should not be making any plans at all
we could always plan for the best
but be sure to prepare for the worst.

i'm out in the real world, and i don't like it

not one bit

adjustment period

pic from stuffnoonetoldme

last night I went out with my friends and we've spent hours talking and discussing adulthood: jobs, cars, salaries, loans, houses, marriages etc
it finally occurred to me that I will not be earning as much as they do
i've got a friend who coud afford to buy a semi-d with her income
and it hasn't been a year since she started work
the amount that she will be paying for her house and car would me my total income for the month
imagine that

i have a really hard time trying to adjust with that idea
honestly speaking, i have always been blessed with well, good life
amongst my friends,my family are pretty much well off and i'm used to live in luxury
and now ,
well, let's just say that I will lead a much more humble life than theirs

not to say that I'm not grateful with what I have
indeed, Alhamdulillah
i've been blessed with good fortunes so far.
I also have no intention of competing with others
i mean, why should i?
but I'm just not used to the idea that I will be at the bottom of the strata in terms of my monthly earnings
life sure is full of surprises innit?
who would have thought that things would turned out this way

i need some time to adjust to this idea
and i will be needing more time to adjust myself to live more humbly
or
i could just marry a rich guy :P