...but if I can be allowed a mediocre generalization, don’t pointless things have a place, too, in this far-from-perfect world? Remove everything pointless from an imperfect life and it’d lose even its imperfection

Haruki Murakami

Sputnik Sweetheart

take me to the end of the rainbow

i could really use some extra $$$ right now.

not up for anything really

2 hours left

500 words to go

malas tau x malas????????

epic failure

i can cook up a feast for more than 10 people

but i have yet to master the art of making caramel popcorn without almost burning the house down.

LOL

1 more day to go until the final exam!

can't wait to go out and enjoy the weather! ^^

i will write again soon.

when you bid the world goodbye...

I know i'm supposed to be in bed right now to prepare myself for the journey tomorrow but I'm too disturbed to even close my eyes for a moment.
My housemate's mom just passed away earlier today.
It was unexpected. but then again, nobody can predict when they will die, even the sickly ones.
Though I have a few friends whom their parents just passed away, this one is different. Usually, I wasnt there when they received the news.
but today was different.
the girl was in the room next to mine.
I could hear her cries.
I could hear her wails.
It was heartbreaking.
and i can do nothing nor say anything.
nothing.

death
is inevitable
we all will die
sooner or later
there's nothing you can do to prevent it
no matter how "powerful" you are,
you will die.
you may tae all the suplements or the anti-ageing or whatever it is that may lasts you longer
but hey,
who says that you will only die when you are old?
you can be 12 years old and collapsed and die in a matter of seconds.
Only Allah knows.

death.
death.
death
disturbs me in so many ways:

1. the unpredictable nature of death itself is frightening. what if i'm gonna die soon? what if my family members will leave me soon? am i strong enough to face the challenge? will i be able to maintain my sanity? how will I die? am I able to say the syahadah before I die?

2.life in the hereafter scares me the most. are we ever prepared to meet The Creator?

3. how will you comfort a person who just lost her beloved ones? what is the right thing to say to her? what can you do to help her (if she needed to be helped). how will you face her? what tone should you use? what body language should you expressed?
argh. it was so frustrating. what ever that I have learned during counselling classes seemed so pointless today.
theories went down the drain. this is a real life situation. what can you actually do??
i was pretty upset with myself for being too afraid to face the housemate. i was so scared that i might hurt her even more (we were never close to begin with). so i avoided her. silly me. all i could do is to prepare the refreshments for the tahlil session as a gesture that I do care, but I could do nothing to comfort her.


May Allah rest her mom's soul in peace. Amin.

don't ever forget

Bukankah Dia (Allah) yang menciptakan langit dan bumi dan yang menurunkan air dari langit untukmu, lalu Kami tumbuhkan dengan air itu kebun-kebun yang berpandangan indah? Kamu tidak akan mampu menumbuhkan pohon-pohonnya. Apakah di samping Allah ada tuhan (yang lain)? Sebenarnya mereka adalah orang-orang yang menyimpang (dari kebenaran).

Bukankah Dia (Allah) yang telah menjadikan bumi sebagai tempat berdiam, yang menjadikan sungai-sungai di celah-celahnya, yang menjadikan gunung-gunung untuk (mengukuh)nya dan yang menjadikan suatu pemisah antara dua laut? Apakah di samping Allah ada tuhan (yang lain)? Sebenarnya kebanyakan mereka tidak mengetahui.

Bukankah Dia (Allah) yang memperkenankan (doa) orang yang dalam kesulitan apabila dia berdoa kepadaNya, dan menghilangkan kesusahan dan menjadikan kamu (manusia) sebagai khalifah (pemimpin) di bumi? Apakah di samping Allah ada tuhan (yang lain)? Sedikit sekali (nikmat Allah) yang kamu ingat.

Bukankah Dia (Allah) yang memberi petunjukkepada kamu dalam kegelapan di daratan dan lautan dan yang mendatangkan angin sebagai khabar gembira sebelum (kedatangan) rahmatNya? Apakah di samping Allah ada tuhan (yang lain)? Mahatinggi Allah terhadap apa yang mereka persekutukan.

Bukankah Dia (Allah) yang menciptakan (makhluk) dari permulaannya, kemudian mengulanginya (lagi) dan yang memberikan rezeki kepadamu dari langit dan bumi? Apakah di samping Allah ada tuhan (yang lain)? Katakanlah, "Kemukakanlah bukti kebenaranmu, jika kamu orang yang benar."

Katakanlah (Muhammad), "Tidak ada sesuatu pun di langit dan di bumi yang mengetahui perkara yang ghaib, kecuali Allah. Dan mereka tidak mengetahui kapan mereka akan dibangkitkan"

(An-Naml, 60-65)

don't you think we oughta know by now? don't you think we should have learned somehow?

currently i'm working as a casual after school care assistant at a new place.

it's interesting to really see for yourself how different social background (i.e family's income) has a lot of influence on the kids behaviour.

while working there, i've been asked by the kids about my age plenty of times.

To make things interesting (yet hurtful), I always let them have a guess.

and usually they will say that I'm around 30-35.

wtfish.

do i look that old??

sheesh

anyhow, let's reflect back on ourselves when we were that age. say, 6 years old?

when we were 6, we thought that a 22 years old is like, really, really old.

a grown up.

a sensible, mature grown up who has life figured out and is very secure and confident and very responsible. someone you can depend on.

someone you could trust. someone that can do practically everything they wanna/required todo.

in my head, i used to imagined the 22 year old me should have achieved xxxx and xxxxt and would be able to do xxxx and xxxx and in the progress towards xxxx and xxxx.

sadly, none of this is true.

the 22 year old me is still a pathetic loser who has not accomplished anything that she could be proud of.

im still in the midst of a quarter life crisis.

i know that i need to do this and this and balance this and this but arghhh

the sense of insecurity is overwhelming.

which makes me wonder, how can i be a good teacher if i dont even trust myself?

when we were students, we looked up after our teachers right?

we trusted them to be able to take care of us.

How am i supposed to take care/ at least be a mentor to my students when I cant even take care of myself?

it scares the hell out of me thinking about coming back to msia for good next year.

because when we come back, we're no longer coming back as some silly students on holiday.

we're coming back as a full blown adults who are responsible for the future of the next generation.

i cant go back and still expect my mom to drive me around and give me pocket money

or just sleep and hope that things will get better in the morning.

maybe im thinking too much about unnecessary stuff.

or maybe, i'm just too scared of growing up.

too scared to leave this comfort zone.

this carefree and relatively slow pace of life them I'm having.

but in the end,

que sera sera

whatever will be, will be.

i'm so gonna miss this moment.

eventhough the uncertainty of the future is killing me, i'm definitely gonna miss being this irresponsible.

live rugby experience #2

though i still think that rugby is a pointless, ruthless game,

but dayum the All Blacks,

you guys are sweet as!!!

erase and rewind

just got back from JUNZ 2010

similar to last year,

came home full of hope and determination

to start all over again

to rejuvenate the iman

to start prioritizing what's important in this mere life

and having a deeper, clearer future plan.

the more you understand the purpose of life,

the clearer your future plan will be,

and life will definitely be meaningful.

there's more to life than what you think.

there's a lot more to life.

a new beginning.

to get better.

to be istiqamah, steadfast,

that's the challenge.

meeting new people

and living in a different kind of environment,

definitely get me to reflect the way i lead my life:

there's always someone who's more knowledgeable,

more successful yet more humble

more kind

more thoughtful

always sincere.

they definitely motivate us to become better.

made us realized that we need to be better

there's a lot more to learn.

there's so much more that we dont know.

there's so many things that we took for granted.

so many things to do.

there's no time to waste.

may we always stay in the right track.

whatever happened in the past is not to be forgotten but to motivate us to become a better muslim/ah.

let's colour the future! ^^

the right to remain ignorant

whenever there's an assignment coming up, there's always the urge to update this blog.

i dont want to remain ignorant

but the thing is, i am not interested in things that im forced to learn

i just dont care.

i dont care about these linguistic stuff

pffffttt

uh-oh

i have the attention span of a goldfish

wonder how im gonna answer the test tomorrow...

feeling overwhelmed

everybody's changing

but im still the same

half of my heart won't do

i love john mayer's songs despite the douche that he is.

and he's gonna perform in wellington tomorrow.

and i am not gonna be there to see him in person.

and i am frustrated.like extremely disappointed.

why didnt i get the tix?

money is not the main issue. i dont mind forking out money to watch him(punyela die hard fan sampai begitu skali)

it's a once in a lifetime opportunity kot.

friends to bring along...?

i do know some close friends who just need a little push to come with me.

but i didnt push them that hard.

you know why?

because i feel guilty.

and what i've learned from joining usrah is:

jika ada getaran jiwa or jika ada rasa terdetik di hati tu bila nk buat sesuatu tu, maknanya something wrongla.benda tu salah or lebih jelas lg, x diredhai Allah.

or something like that.

Ok i x reti nk explain further. sbb tu x layak jd kakak usrah. kak sarah,tlg explain.haha

nway,

the guilt is preventing me from goin there.

truth to be told, that was the first time i ever had the desire to buy a concert ticket.

it's gonna be my first concert ever.

before this pernahla tgk KRU punye roadshow, Kaer AF2 la pela ..haha

lame??i know

i was 16 at that time.go figure.

tapi nk tgk kaer punye pasal, sampai terlepas solat asar, sedar2 dh magrib

tu belum lg part berebut2 nk salam kaer la,vince la, tp time reshmonu hulur tangan tahu pule x baik salam bukan muhrim..isk3.dhla jahil,racist pule tu.haih.

see, that's exactly why going to a concert is not such a good idea.

you eventually, will forget God along the way.

melalaikan katanye.

and that brings us to what I've learned during usrah last week;

Hadis 6: Halal dan Haram

Maksudnya:

“Dari Abu Abdullah An-Nu’man bin Basyir r.a. katanya : saya telah mendengar Rasulullah SAW bersabda : ‘ Sesungguhnya yang halal itu jelas dan yang haram itu jekas , dan di antara keduanya pula terdapat perkara-perkara yang syubahat ( tidak terang halal atau haramnya ) yang diragui dan tiada diketahui oleh orang ramai. Orang yang memelihara dirinya dari perkara-perkara yang syubahat itu adalah seperti orang yang melindungi agama dan kehormatan dirinya. Orang yang tergelincir ke dalam perkara syubahat itu akan tergelincir masuk ke dalam perkara haram. Laksana seorang pengembala di pinggir sebuah tempat larangan. Hampir sangat ia menternak ke dalamnya (tempat larangan itu). Ketahuilah, bagi setiap raja ada tempat larangan, dan tempat larangan Allah itu adalah perkara-perkara yang diharamkanNya. Dan ketahuilah pada setiap jasad itu seketul daging. Andainya ia baik, baiklah seluruh jasad itu dan sekiranya ia rosak maka rosaklah seluruh jasad itu. Itulah hati" -riwayat Bukhari & Muslim-

apa yang jelas halal?

ayam kat halal butcher?minum susu?

menutup aurat?bekerja sebagai seorang guru?solat 5 waktu?etc

apa pula yang haram?

minum arak. berzina. rasuah. jadi bartender. bersentuhan bukan muhrim dan sebagainya.

Perkara halal dan haram yang sudah jelas termaktub dalam Al Qur’an dan Sunnah tidak boleh dipertikaikan lagi. Sami’na wa ato’na…

Halal dan haram itu merangkumi aspek makan minum, pakaian,pekerjaan, muamalah dan segala aspek kehidupan.

and..what about going to concerts?

apa yg lagi dekat?

tho xdela wujud ayat Quran yg ckp diharamkan pergi ke concert abg John Mayer,

kite bole figure out sendiri kan?

apa yg ada time concert?

arak.definitely.

bercampur gaul berlainan jantina.duh

maka,haruslah dielakkan daripada melakukan perkara2 syubhah yg akan mendekatkn diri dgn perkara2 yg haram.

i do hope that i wont regret my decision of not seeing abang mayer live in person.

the euphoric sensation wont last long, God's blessing is eternal.

yes,indeed i am trying to console myself.

i am no goody two shoes.

i am still extremely jealous of those who gonna meet him tomorrow.

am not gonna lie here.

to quote from abg mayer himself (from one of my fav song,Half of My Heart)

half of my heart got a grip on the situation

half of my heart takes time

forgive me for writing this post in this utter rubbish rojak.

the mind is in chaos lately.

human growth and potential

The potato story:

"Potatoes which are kept in the cellar are in an unfavourable environment compared to those planted outside, yet still developed shoots and grew stems (however distorted) in an attempt to reach light"(Rogers,1980)

despite unfavourable conditions, organisms will still continue to grow in whatever way they can to fulfil their potential.

the environment is not equal for all.

when insecurity kicks in

and you feel the sudden urge to behave like a 15 year old high school girl.

you know, when all those i dont't care, girls rule boys drool, i'm cool ur not etc glittery graphics are everywhere on your friendster page

and it's ok to have them on your page.

can i go back there just once?
just this once?

perfectly imperfect

i love that.

growing up is never easy.

contemplating the future is stressful indeed.

forcing yourself to be "rational" and "mature" all the time is tiring.

i say,let the inner child do the talking once in a while.

i want my mummy to tell me that everything's gonna be ok.

what a scary world we're living in

whether you want to believe it or not, it's up to you

http://vigilantcitizen.com/

i have now deleted lady gaga,rihanna, beyonce and jay-z from my playlist.

they're not really my cup of tea anyway.

i am not taking any chances.

it's time to go back to basic,

the Holy Quran and sunnahs.

death

is inevitable.

predestined.

no one can avoid death

there's no such thing as to 'cheat death'

it's just how the life cycle goes.

i dont know why,

but lately, the idea of death has been bugging me

i am a muslim.

i do believe in the life of hereafter.

i do believe in the Day of Judgement.

i do believe that our sins/rewards are gonna be measured.

i do believe in the existence of heaven and hell.

i am scared,

death comes sometimes without warning,

when you least expected it.

are you ready for it?

are we ever gonna be ready to face death?

now, while i still get the chance,

i would like to apologize to everyone

for everything i've done.

i am no saint.

just a sometimes-misguided,obnoxious,hardheaded, short-tempered little woman.

it's that time of the year again

2 more years to go and and I'll be the one who has the power to make the students miserable

muahahaha

often we forget

So when the time is hard
There's no way to turn
As HE promise HE will always be there
To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy
Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there
HE's always watching us, guiding us
And HE knows what's in all in our heart

So when you lose your way
To Allah you should turn
As HE promise HE will always be there...

Allahu Akbar

fitter happier

am not talking bout the radiohead song nor am i such a big fan of radiohead.

sue me.

regarding the obsession over the most sensitive issue of all mankind- the weight issue,

when does it gonna end?

how am i going to end it?

the weather is surprisingly nice.

still warm and sunny.

(freakin weird since it's march already and we're in wellington- who's renown for her unpredictable weather and fierce wind)

no early morning classes.

dont feel like having a job this year.i want to enjoy my free time. i can be pennyless. watever.

and this awesome house is near the botanic garden.

and there comes the brilliant idea.

go for a daily morning jog.

if you know me,

that's one of the things that you wouldnt ecpect to come out of my mouth,

let alone doing it.

but yeah, now i jog every morning (if i have the time)

and today, i did the most unthinkable,

i've signed up for a gym membership!

hahahaha

sha and gym does not belong in the same sentence.

i hate getting all sweaty.

and i have really3 poor coordination.

in short, i'm the girl who used to be in the last place in any kind of sport at school

be it running, high jump blablabla

and i'm that girl who used to be the last person to be chosen for any sports team (if i'm lucky to be chosen at all)

be it netball, handball, volleyball etc

the teacher never encourage the underdogs

and the talented players will snubbed at you.

so i guess, i just have no talent in sports.

i resent sports or any kind of physicall activities as much as i resent mathematics.

it's that baaaaaadddd.

however, since coming back from the summer vacation,

after hanging around with the elderly with all kinds of health problems,

i started getting a bit worried about my health.

it hit me that i'm terriibly unfit when i gasp for air like crazy (and looking like a goldfish at that) when i climb up the not-so-steep hills of everton trc to uni.

for goodness sake, im only 22 and i have the stamina of a 70 year old!

it's really embarrassing and worrying!

so then i decided to push myself to go for a morning jog (more like a walk) at the botanic garden in the mornings

even if that means i have to go there alone.

it's relatively more safe here than back home.

and you dont feel too self-conscious doing it here.

back home, there's a probability that you're gonna be the target of a snatch thief or a rapist etc

and there's definitely gonna be some wolf-whistling by the ever gentlemen males out there.

sue me for being prejudice for i am speaking the truth.

so basically that's how i plan to use my time "over the sea".

i dont care if i look so clueless or so uncoordinated at the gym.

they wont laugh at me.

but the funny thing is,

we tend to be so self-conscious of doing those kind of stuff if there's any other malays too.

it's the same attitude as i-dont-care-if-the-kiwis-see-me-without-my-hijab-but-omg-other male malays-shouldnt-see-that!

anyway,

being all sweaty and getting in touch with nature has never been so refreshing!

it's like a euphoric sense of freedom!

and i am definitely happier now :)

p/s-it's not about getting stick-thin, it's about being healthier.

the ideal life

we all have goals and dreams to achieve in this mere short life we have.

your goals and my goals are different.

do not simply assumed that i will conform to your goals.

who are you to say that these are the limited goals that we all must have.

who are you to force me to aspire the things that you think are important in life.

who are you to decide what i should be achieving according to your timeline.

you lead the life the way you want to.

i'll lead mine the way i like it to be.

if somewhere along the way, one of us took the wrong, sinful path,

then it's your job and mine to bring that person back to the right path.

the right path that leads to His blessings.

our dreams might be different, but His blessings are more important.

otherwise, steer clear.

out of my way.

fatimah juling. brilliant.

Since halimah jonggang is so well received by the ever lovely and intelligent viewers of Asteruk, they're decided to air a new telefilm called "Fatimah Juling"

Our entertainment industry is certainly filled with a bunch of clever and sensitive people.

Kudos to them for coming up with such wild and mind blowing ideas.

it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

am blogging from the melbourne airport
couldnt sleep
somehow i feel that going back to welly again is way harder than the first time i came here
maybe because back then, there's this excitement and high expectations of going abroad

but right now, i feel so homesick
maybe because i feel guilty for not helping my mom enough around the house
or maybe because i miss the lil ones too much
or maybe, maybe just the thought of having to unpack my stuff(oh the hassle....) and move to a new place with random housemates and the thought of going to school for observation a day after our arrival is too overwhelming
idk
but i know that
i am kinda depressed
and sad

but i have to be strong
it's my responsibility to be here
and do my best to perform wayy better than i used to
i have to make mama proud! ^-^

sigh
goodbye my hot summer vacation
hello cool and windy education
time to go back to reality


p/s maybe it's the hormones...

can i turn back time?

the circle of life

any mention of the circle of life will forever remind me of The Lion King

yesterday,

i was left in charge of the house

since mami and papi finally accepted the fact that im 22 , not 11 anymore.

nah, just kidding.

mami and papi had to attend a wedding in KL.

papi LOVES wedding.

he would go out of his way just to attend a wedding regardless if the wedding is in the middle of nowhere or if he has no idea who the bride/groom is.

he truly believes that if we're invited to weddings, we have to attend them or else others won't come to our weddings.

heh, not that there's gonna be any weddings at our house anytime soon.

..... right abang?*scoff*

anyway,

the funny thing is

he left me in charge of the house, the little siblings and atok

he emphasized on taking care of atok

'kamu duduk rumah,jaga atok" (not that i have the slightest interest to attend the wedding anyway -_-)

it's funny

because when we were little

atok is the one who took care of us

mami and papi would left us with atok if they want to go out just the two of them(while we're in tganu)

but now,

now that atok's living with us

it's our job to take care of her

having atok here really got me thinking about growing old

if God's willing, we'll grow old too someday

and i have just realized some disturbing facts of life.

growing old is like a process of slowly becoming a baby again

you'll sulk if you didnt get all those little sweets that you're granddaughter is having

you crave to eat all the junks that lil kids like

such as maggi, chocs, colourful biscuits etc

and

you're becoming more and more helpless

your bones, muscles and joints wont move perfectly anymore

you stutter to speak

you cant hear very well

you cant remember where you put your things

you need help to move around

i once jokigly said tatih tatih to atok as she's struggling to walk

just like she said tatih to us when we're learning to walk

sooner or later,

you'll need help when you want to sleep,eat

or take a bath

and there will come a time when you have to wear diapers again.

having atok around is a reminder that we'll go through that phase someday

if God's willing.

it's also a reminder to enjoy your life while you're still young,

to take care of your health for the future

to learn and do all kind of stuff while you still can

and most of all, to do more ibadah while you're still capable of doing them.

my tok abah(from papi's side), on the other hand,

is a wise old man

and mind you, he's so hi-tech

he had windows 7 installed in his computer first before any of us did

he's way older than my atok but he still can drive around,

joke around and alhamdulillah,

he's nowhere near going senile

he's a bit of hard of hearing now

but let's face it, he's an old man

he's just growing old

and his secret to a healthy and happy(i sure hope he's happy) long life is to never let your mind go idle.

you must do something to keep yourself busy.

dont just sit around and reminiscing of the good ol' life you used to have.

even when you dont feel well,

you have to push yourself to go through it.

must always remember to keep your mind active.

alhamdulillah, how lucky are we?

to still be able to do what most elders cant' do.

i know it's a cliche but hey, we have to live our life to the fullest!

so folks,

let's hit those Scrabble,crossword puzzles, sudokus!

exercise regularly!

develop healthy eating habits!

and of course, try to recite and memorize verses of the Holy Quran as much as you can.

try to lead your young life as humble as you can.

there's no need to be all cocky and arrogant and create lots of enemies in your young days.

you won't know what's gonna happen to you in the future.

you wont know whether you're gonna age gracefully or not.

and you won't know if there's anyone left in this world who cares about you when you're old and helpless.

"Do not regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many"

and oh yeah

having atok around also remind me that soon,

it's up to us to take care of mami and papi.

are we strong enough and patient enough for that?

i'm scared.

random thoughts while watching tv

the idiot box

apparently there's nothing good on tv nowadays
mr director,please la, choose your actors wisely
good looks does not equal to good acting skills(like duh)
and please stop using those fake,fake,fake eyelashes!
for goodness sake, you guys are actresses , not drag queens!

and wassup with series like halimah jongang or si capik (yes, thanks to my atok for faithfully supporting our local industry )
why do you need to highlight and make fun of other people's less fortunate condition?
so what kalau jongang?
the condition of their teeth does not reflect their IQ (it's an entirely different matter if the teeth is full of cavities or poor dental hygiene)
xpayahla nk kesian sgt pun kalau die tempang ke, jongang ke,
it's not like if he's tempang he is also mentally retarded or suffering from down syndrome etc

xpernah lg i dgr org ckp "sy hidup susah sbb sy jongang" or "sy x berjaya dapat biasiswa sbb sy jongang"
some of us are just blessed with poor genes

making fun of them is not even funny.
sheesh
seriously, what century are we in right now?

so what's next?

fatin albino? hamdan sepet? hamid capang? shamsiah hidung kembang?

are you telling us that it's wrong to not look like a barbie doll? *insert heidi montag joke here*

after watching these kind of series (ok i xtgk pun. it's just an assumption based on the commercials)
the children who watched it will torture their friends with unfortunate teeth with terrible insults and the kids at the receiving end will suffer from lack of self esteem and will beg the parents to allow them to wear braces
some people just cant afford to wear braces ok
and as for t he cheaper alternative,the waitlist at the government clinic is just too long.
i've been there. i know what i'm talking about.


since there's absolutely nothing good to watch in the afternoons,
i humbly forced myself to watch the AF concerts reruns
after all, i watched AF since the 1st episode of the 1st season
and i was a HUGE fan of kaer af2 (my af frenzy ended after af2, thank you very much)
sigh, to be so young and not media literate
hahaha
anyway, while watching af,
i could not help but to notice that we really have no idea on how to give a good feedback
the judges (who think that they're so smart and so otai) tahu nk hentam saje
so you think you did a great job by just by pointing out their weaknesses?
does that make you inferior?(even if you, yourself is not such a great singer/entertainer)
is that the case?

and you dont have to point out their bad pronunciation or diction everytime one of them sang an english song

please consider their background first

typical meleis would freaked out whenever they have to speak in english

kudos to them for being brave enough to attempt an english song with fake confidence

it's a good try

stop shooting them down

if you keep on giving remarks like bad pronuciation and stuff,

they might not want to speak in English ever again

save that kind of comment to future English teachers with bad grammar and horrible pronunciations(like us T_T)

i know that giving feedback is hard
but there are few simple steps that they could use:

1.Point out the strong points
Start with a positive comment. Praise them for something done well.
"What I admire about your style…
"I'm impressed with the way you ……
"I really liked how you…
"That was very impressive how you…

remember to keep your tone positive. jgnla bunyi cm nk perli2 pule.

2.Every comment that points out a weakness should also have a suggestion for overcoming the weakness
It is important to point out their weaknesess to help them grow, but remember to do it in an open, safe, supportive, sensitive environment

Use personal statements whenever possible, describing your reactions to the coaching. "I felt…", "It seemed to me…"I wonder if…"I sense

Avoid "but" and "however" - "You started out very strong, but/however… The "but" and "however" negates everything you said before. Make two separate sentences or connect them with "and."

Give honest, helpful appropriate suggestions. Point out tactfully some area for improvement.

"There may have been a missed opportunity…
"It's a small thing, but be aware of….
"The one thing you might look for is…

Be sure to check with them to confirm he/she understands your remarks, so there is no misinterpretation of your meaning


3.End with a positive encouraging remark. Never end with a negative.

"I really admire your courage in..."
"Overall, I very much enjoyed…"
"We are very pleased and lucky to have you here as..
"You have some wonderful …

credit to www.protocolplus.net/feedback.html

well, this tips could be applied to any situation that requires you to give feedback to anyone.

especially for us, future teachers.

you could not imagine how important it is to give effective feedback to the students.

whatever that comes out from your mouth will have an impact on your students.

yet another random entry from me

cheers

we all need to take a break and slow down

'But I like turning the pages… am I a dinosaur?'

-Lainey-

the best remark i've encountered regarding the hype surrounding the iPad

LOL

but then again, i'm no technology expert

but as a consumer, i dont think i'll buy it

a little pick me up

for every meaningful(sort of) situation in my life,

there's at least a song to accompany it.

a theme song.

the theme songs for the moment are:

hgh

Ain't nothing gonna break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down
Oh no, I've got to keep on moving
Ain't nothing gonna break my stride
I'm running and I won't touch ground
Oh no, I've got to keep on moving

and of course,
a song from the amazing john mayer ( i dont care if he's a douche in real life, his songs are fantastic!)

say what you need to say ( repeat a gazillion times!like a mantra)

this is not his best song.
i used to hate it as it used to be overplayed on the radio,
but i'm finally able to relate to this song ;P

stating the obvious

i am emotional

fullstop

i know that exposing your private life in your blogs is not such a great idea

fullstop

keeping a diary is way safer than keeping a blog

fullstop

people would use your blog against you

fullstop

fine

i'll try to talk about general stuff through my own view(of course) from now on

(that was the initial intention of keeping this blog but i guess i've got too caught up with myself)

hello old diary. long time no see.

love-hate

in this world

not everyone likes to see you happy

even if they said they wished all the happiness in the world for you, sometimes they dont really mean it

words are just that.. words

we've been accustomed or programmed to say such things

good words for good things.

like good luck dear!

all the best!

may your dreams come true , i'll miss you yada yada yada

do you have to really mean it?

of course not

those are just nice words to write on a birthday card, facebook statuses and so on

people expect to see those words on certain occasions

hence, others just mechanically wrote down those things without really thinking about it.

sometimes. not all the time.

bad words on the other hand,

boy, do people mean it when they say such bad things.

people wont naturally say they hate something if they didnt really hate that thing do they?

bad words usually come straight from the heart.instantly.

people become very passionate when they're on a heated debate, or when they are really pissed off

ahh.. what's my point really??

the thing is, some people just can't stand seeing you happy

it's just their nature i guess

oh well, that's life

sticks and stones may break my bones,

but words will never hurt me ?

sorry honey,

they do.

p/s-my 22nd birthday was awesome, for the most part, that is.

kenapa? why?doshte?

kenapa

mengapa

kenapa

kala di perantauan

sanggup bersusah payah

tonggang tonggek di jalanan

hilang malu

hilang geli mencium tanah

untuk sujud menghadapNya

tiba di negeri sendiri

surau kiri kanan

rumah pun selesa

air nyaman untuk berwudhuk

tidak akan menggigil pun berwudhuk

siapa hina kamu solat?

siapa persoalkan kenapa perlu solat?

siapa halang kamu dari bersolat?

tiada siapa

tapi

oh sungguh beratnya!

oh sungguh malasnya!

oh sungguh liatnya!

oh nantilah dulu..

ah lambat lagi!

ah betapa sukarnya diri ini untuk solat!

kenapa?

kenapa?

kenapa??

mungkin ini ujianMu Tuhan..

best friends are forever indeed

this week i had been busy catching up with friends

the new ones (scratch that. it's been almost 5 years since we've known each other) and the old ones

i mean really old ones

like the ones that you've been friends with since standard 2

i guess i was so excited and i talked and talked till i lose my voice

i sounded like a rockstar for now

give me a ring and i'll entertain you:P

but losing my voice was worth it

i finally get the chance to meet my primary besties:my BFF P and the ever so lovely Q

it's been 10 years since we last meet each other (Q went to live in Qatar since 2004 and P was well, she's in JB. that's like hours away from the magical forest of kuantan)

i was touched that they're willing to come to my place for a sleepover

would you sleep at the house of someone you haven't met in 10 years?

i doubt i would

but that just proves how tight we are

how comfortable we are with each other though much have changed since standard 6

(speaking face to face is wayyy different than having conversations on the phone)

though all of us are in different places and different field now,

it amazes me how similar we are in many ways

lke the way we carry ourselves and well, our other relationships

i guess now i can clearly see why parents are very concerned about the friends of their kids

coz they will gradually, influenced the rest of the children's lives

i am thankful for having wonderful people as my friends

it doesnt matter whether you guys are 'the olds ones' or 'the new ones'

everyone has a place in my heart ^_^

"A friend is a person with whom I may be sincere. Before him I may think aloud."

- Ralph Waldo Emerson-

looking forward to meet the mgs girls

please come back soon!!

oh! the irony

isn't it ironic

when you're thousands miles apart from your family

they didn't care about where you're going,

with whom you're travelling with etc

travelling 8 hours by bus?

ok.

you're boarding the plane alone?

ok, that's fine. (well of course it is pa! *rolling eyes*)

but when you're right in front of their eyes,

they getting all worked up over stuff like this.

puh-lease mum and dad (esp. u Dad)

i'm not a schoolkid anymore

i'm already in my 20s and am experiencing quarter life crisis

haha

what you just read above was my original post

i was thinking of publishing this before i began my journey to terengganu for the wedding of eny's brother

but i didnt

as i had a feeling, what if something went wrong?

wouldnt it be weird that after i post this somewhat cocky entry,

something bad actually happened to me??

and it did

sorta

so the bus i took to tganu from the magical forest of kuantan was on Friday, at 8.45 am

freaking early i tell u

mom dropped me off at the bus sation like, 10 minutes before departure time and went off to the market

when i got there, the bus was empty

and i thought, oh, maybe it's because the driver isnt here yet

this group of people around me(like 1o of them) will ride the same bus with me

wrong.

dead wrong.

throughout the whole 3 1/2 hour journey to tganu,

i was the only one in the bus

imagine how shocked, flabbergasted,dumfounded, bewildered i was when i found out that i'm the only passenger??

i nearly fainted

yes, i am a drama queen

and i've texted almost everyone i know about my whereabouts

are you freaking kidding me??

alone with the quite young bus driver??

remember the suhaiza incident?( i think that's her name)

of course i was paranoid

i have every rights to be paranoid (i think)

needless to say

i made it to tganu

all safe and sound

thanks to concerned friends who checked up on me almost every half and hour

i now you guys love me

haha

and big thanks to the bus driver who did his job honestly and efficiently (sort of. why did he have to stop for a smoke in Marang is beyond me)

and kudos to him for managing to resist the temptation in the form of the oh so gorgeous yours truly

LOL

anyhoo

the moral of the story is:

1.parents know best. stop arguing with them.

2. trust your instinct.like i said before,i didnt post this earlier because i have a strong feeling that something's going to happen. based on previous experiences as well, i guess my instinct are pretty accurate

3.stop putting labels on people. just because one bus driver did a bad thing, that doesnt mean that all of them are bad. honest bus drivers are awesome! ^_^ (oh teringat abg bus 99. wink to the mgs girls)

the nerve wrecking journey was worth it

i had fun with the girls

and the wedding was quite unique- they had the chinese lion dance as well as the usual kompang

1malaysia i tell u

haha

and never wear white to someone else's wedding

people will mistaken you as the bride

LOL

why do they have to go to school??

'school is for miserable losers kakak'(kamiel, 2009)

and i'll be a sore loser too,

waiting for you guys to come home everyday from school while i'm at home with nothing to do

~sigh~

forgive me dear friends,

for staying low for the past month

forgive me for not wanting to go to your place

and for not replying your messages

i've been busy

spending as much time as i could with the lil ones

mom said i've become more childish than before

well i guess that's because i've just realised how precious these moments are

this is my last chance

to be with them

while they're still young, innocent, cute, and listen to their big sis

in other words, before they hit puberty

haha

i'm definitely not going to waste this golden chance

so there you go mom

that's the reason why i didn't mind spending my time playing hide and seek (with this size, how the hell did i find a place to hide?)

i did whatever i can to amuse the lil ones

after all, i am their kakak

i had my share of fun too ^_______^

now with the school term is starting soon,

what should i do with all my free time??

oh wait

maybe i'll just sleep until they come home

yeah, that's a great plan (imagine the look on mom's face)

i'll definitely gonna miss this guy

why do you have to go to the boarding school???

kakak will go nuts without you ( but i guess i'm nuts when i'm with you too)

good luck dear ototo kun!

please come home soon! who's gonna wash the dishes??

new year

i dont have any new resolutions for this year

heck, i never keep one

2009 was ok

i think

definitely not the best year of my life

oh well

looking forward to what the new year will bring

perhaps a new pair of shoes? haha

my birthday is coming soon

keep that in mind

haha

anyhoo

happy new year

be good :)