it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

am blogging from the melbourne airport
couldnt sleep
somehow i feel that going back to welly again is way harder than the first time i came here
maybe because back then, there's this excitement and high expectations of going abroad

but right now, i feel so homesick
maybe because i feel guilty for not helping my mom enough around the house
or maybe because i miss the lil ones too much
or maybe, maybe just the thought of having to unpack my stuff(oh the hassle....) and move to a new place with random housemates and the thought of going to school for observation a day after our arrival is too overwhelming
idk
but i know that
i am kinda depressed
and sad

but i have to be strong
it's my responsibility to be here
and do my best to perform wayy better than i used to
i have to make mama proud! ^-^

sigh
goodbye my hot summer vacation
hello cool and windy education
time to go back to reality


p/s maybe it's the hormones...