we all need to take a break and slow down

'But I like turning the pages… am I a dinosaur?'

-Lainey-

the best remark i've encountered regarding the hype surrounding the iPad

LOL

but then again, i'm no technology expert

but as a consumer, i dont think i'll buy it

a little pick me up

for every meaningful(sort of) situation in my life,

there's at least a song to accompany it.

a theme song.

the theme songs for the moment are:

hgh

Ain't nothing gonna break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down
Oh no, I've got to keep on moving
Ain't nothing gonna break my stride
I'm running and I won't touch ground
Oh no, I've got to keep on moving

and of course,
a song from the amazing john mayer ( i dont care if he's a douche in real life, his songs are fantastic!)

say what you need to say ( repeat a gazillion times!like a mantra)

this is not his best song.
i used to hate it as it used to be overplayed on the radio,
but i'm finally able to relate to this song ;P

stating the obvious

i am emotional

fullstop

i know that exposing your private life in your blogs is not such a great idea

fullstop

keeping a diary is way safer than keeping a blog

fullstop

people would use your blog against you

fullstop

fine

i'll try to talk about general stuff through my own view(of course) from now on

(that was the initial intention of keeping this blog but i guess i've got too caught up with myself)

hello old diary. long time no see.

love-hate

in this world

not everyone likes to see you happy

even if they said they wished all the happiness in the world for you, sometimes they dont really mean it

words are just that.. words

we've been accustomed or programmed to say such things

good words for good things.

like good luck dear!

all the best!

may your dreams come true , i'll miss you yada yada yada

do you have to really mean it?

of course not

those are just nice words to write on a birthday card, facebook statuses and so on

people expect to see those words on certain occasions

hence, others just mechanically wrote down those things without really thinking about it.

sometimes. not all the time.

bad words on the other hand,

boy, do people mean it when they say such bad things.

people wont naturally say they hate something if they didnt really hate that thing do they?

bad words usually come straight from the heart.instantly.

people become very passionate when they're on a heated debate, or when they are really pissed off

ahh.. what's my point really??

the thing is, some people just can't stand seeing you happy

it's just their nature i guess

oh well, that's life

sticks and stones may break my bones,

but words will never hurt me ?

sorry honey,

they do.

p/s-my 22nd birthday was awesome, for the most part, that is.

kenapa? why?doshte?

kenapa

mengapa

kenapa

kala di perantauan

sanggup bersusah payah

tonggang tonggek di jalanan

hilang malu

hilang geli mencium tanah

untuk sujud menghadapNya

tiba di negeri sendiri

surau kiri kanan

rumah pun selesa

air nyaman untuk berwudhuk

tidak akan menggigil pun berwudhuk

siapa hina kamu solat?

siapa persoalkan kenapa perlu solat?

siapa halang kamu dari bersolat?

tiada siapa

tapi

oh sungguh beratnya!

oh sungguh malasnya!

oh sungguh liatnya!

oh nantilah dulu..

ah lambat lagi!

ah betapa sukarnya diri ini untuk solat!

kenapa?

kenapa?

kenapa??

mungkin ini ujianMu Tuhan..

best friends are forever indeed

this week i had been busy catching up with friends

the new ones (scratch that. it's been almost 5 years since we've known each other) and the old ones

i mean really old ones

like the ones that you've been friends with since standard 2

i guess i was so excited and i talked and talked till i lose my voice

i sounded like a rockstar for now

give me a ring and i'll entertain you:P

but losing my voice was worth it

i finally get the chance to meet my primary besties:my BFF P and the ever so lovely Q

it's been 10 years since we last meet each other (Q went to live in Qatar since 2004 and P was well, she's in JB. that's like hours away from the magical forest of kuantan)

i was touched that they're willing to come to my place for a sleepover

would you sleep at the house of someone you haven't met in 10 years?

i doubt i would

but that just proves how tight we are

how comfortable we are with each other though much have changed since standard 6

(speaking face to face is wayyy different than having conversations on the phone)

though all of us are in different places and different field now,

it amazes me how similar we are in many ways

lke the way we carry ourselves and well, our other relationships

i guess now i can clearly see why parents are very concerned about the friends of their kids

coz they will gradually, influenced the rest of the children's lives

i am thankful for having wonderful people as my friends

it doesnt matter whether you guys are 'the olds ones' or 'the new ones'

everyone has a place in my heart ^_^

"A friend is a person with whom I may be sincere. Before him I may think aloud."

- Ralph Waldo Emerson-

looking forward to meet the mgs girls

please come back soon!!

oh! the irony

isn't it ironic

when you're thousands miles apart from your family

they didn't care about where you're going,

with whom you're travelling with etc

travelling 8 hours by bus?

ok.

you're boarding the plane alone?

ok, that's fine. (well of course it is pa! *rolling eyes*)

but when you're right in front of their eyes,

they getting all worked up over stuff like this.

puh-lease mum and dad (esp. u Dad)

i'm not a schoolkid anymore

i'm already in my 20s and am experiencing quarter life crisis

haha

what you just read above was my original post

i was thinking of publishing this before i began my journey to terengganu for the wedding of eny's brother

but i didnt

as i had a feeling, what if something went wrong?

wouldnt it be weird that after i post this somewhat cocky entry,

something bad actually happened to me??

and it did

sorta

so the bus i took to tganu from the magical forest of kuantan was on Friday, at 8.45 am

freaking early i tell u

mom dropped me off at the bus sation like, 10 minutes before departure time and went off to the market

when i got there, the bus was empty

and i thought, oh, maybe it's because the driver isnt here yet

this group of people around me(like 1o of them) will ride the same bus with me

wrong.

dead wrong.

throughout the whole 3 1/2 hour journey to tganu,

i was the only one in the bus

imagine how shocked, flabbergasted,dumfounded, bewildered i was when i found out that i'm the only passenger??

i nearly fainted

yes, i am a drama queen

and i've texted almost everyone i know about my whereabouts

are you freaking kidding me??

alone with the quite young bus driver??

remember the suhaiza incident?( i think that's her name)

of course i was paranoid

i have every rights to be paranoid (i think)

needless to say

i made it to tganu

all safe and sound

thanks to concerned friends who checked up on me almost every half and hour

i now you guys love me

haha

and big thanks to the bus driver who did his job honestly and efficiently (sort of. why did he have to stop for a smoke in Marang is beyond me)

and kudos to him for managing to resist the temptation in the form of the oh so gorgeous yours truly

LOL

anyhoo

the moral of the story is:

1.parents know best. stop arguing with them.

2. trust your instinct.like i said before,i didnt post this earlier because i have a strong feeling that something's going to happen. based on previous experiences as well, i guess my instinct are pretty accurate

3.stop putting labels on people. just because one bus driver did a bad thing, that doesnt mean that all of them are bad. honest bus drivers are awesome! ^_^ (oh teringat abg bus 99. wink to the mgs girls)

the nerve wrecking journey was worth it

i had fun with the girls

and the wedding was quite unique- they had the chinese lion dance as well as the usual kompang

1malaysia i tell u

haha

and never wear white to someone else's wedding

people will mistaken you as the bride

LOL

why do they have to go to school??

'school is for miserable losers kakak'(kamiel, 2009)

and i'll be a sore loser too,

waiting for you guys to come home everyday from school while i'm at home with nothing to do

~sigh~

forgive me dear friends,

for staying low for the past month

forgive me for not wanting to go to your place

and for not replying your messages

i've been busy

spending as much time as i could with the lil ones

mom said i've become more childish than before

well i guess that's because i've just realised how precious these moments are

this is my last chance

to be with them

while they're still young, innocent, cute, and listen to their big sis

in other words, before they hit puberty

haha

i'm definitely not going to waste this golden chance

so there you go mom

that's the reason why i didn't mind spending my time playing hide and seek (with this size, how the hell did i find a place to hide?)

i did whatever i can to amuse the lil ones

after all, i am their kakak

i had my share of fun too ^_______^

now with the school term is starting soon,

what should i do with all my free time??

oh wait

maybe i'll just sleep until they come home

yeah, that's a great plan (imagine the look on mom's face)

i'll definitely gonna miss this guy

why do you have to go to the boarding school???

kakak will go nuts without you ( but i guess i'm nuts when i'm with you too)

good luck dear ototo kun!

please come home soon! who's gonna wash the dishes??

new year

i dont have any new resolutions for this year

heck, i never keep one

2009 was ok

i think

definitely not the best year of my life

oh well

looking forward to what the new year will bring

perhaps a new pair of shoes? haha

my birthday is coming soon

keep that in mind

haha

anyhoo

happy new year

be good :)