13/12/14

Today is the 2nd annivessary of my father's passing

I still couldn't get over the fact that I didn't get the chance to say goodbye to him

It still hurts. It still hurts.

May his soul rest in peace

Till we meet again in Jannah insyaAllah

Amin

Al Fatihah

Friends

Sometimes I wonder

Do I really have a friend?

Or am I just an afterthought?

Adapting to a new environment

During my school years

I've changed schools twice

Once when I was in standard 2

Another one when I was in Form 3

Changing school was hard

Fitting in was hard

I remembered feeling isolated

And getting stared at in school

It was uncomfortable

And scary

So I decided to made a scene 

I didn't want to ride on the school van

My mom had to drag me but I just keep crying

So I did get a day off

But staying at home and getting endless scold from Mom wasnt that great either

In the end, you just have to be strong and face your fear

Moving in to a new place,

A new community,

A new group is really hard.

They already have their own established members, their own rules and norms.

As the latest addition to the group,

The best way to fit in is just by keeping your head low

Stay quiet

And just observe.

Get the other members to like you.

Get them to know you.

Get them to respect u.

Slowly.

It takes time.

And during that time, try to improve yourself to get them to acknowledge you 

For example, study hard and be number 1. Suddenly everyone knows u and want to be your friend.

It took me a year to fit in.

By then, I would have gained enough trust and respect by my peers 

Instead of a follower, I was their new leader (yes, I have always been a leader. Thats why im so bossy. Heh)

My point is

When you are a new member of a group

Take your time to fit in

Yes it is hard

Yes it is challenging

But be patient

Remember, YOU are the one who just came in while others have bonded and have their own agreement on how things are

You should learn first, without being intrusive

YOU are the stranger

If you want people to like you,

You have to learn to respect others first

Follow their rhythm

You're not being a hypocrite

That's how human beings are

We change according to our environment

That doesnt mean that you have lost your identity.

So if you are the latest addition to the family

Please, be respectful

Mind your manners

You think it's easy for people to accept you after your intrusive entrance?

Think again.

Missing Papa

Short, small and balding Chinese men always remind me of my late father.

This place is full of men that fits that description.

I miss you terribly, Papa.

Al- Fatihah

Me and my Papa at my Graduation Dinner 😂