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you know how we often complain whenever we are super busy and have no time for ourselves? 

being swamped with work and barely have time to even eat? 

and we always complain that we're tired, have eyebags, no time to enjoy bla2... but I just realized that being busy is actually a blessing from the Almighty 

 Last week, my mom went for her first checkup, 3 months after she had completed her Herceptin treatment. 

I was so busy, she had to go to the hospital all by herself. 

There, they discovered that she has a big lump in her right breast.

 She didn't get the full result of her checkup until today. 

 You see, normally I would be worried sick and crying buckets after receiving the news, just like when she was diagnosed with cancer last year. 

Man, I cried my eyes out every night kot. However, for the past weeks (especially last week) I've been working like crazy.

 I just recently became a warden and it is a nightmare. 

 The thing is, because I was too busy with work, that left me with less time to worry. 

It's not that I don't care about my mom, I was just too busy to spend the little time and energy I had to be unhappy. 

 So the result was out earlier today. Alhamdulillah, the lump is benign. 

I couldn't be happier. 

 Alhamdulillah, because of my sudden hectic schedule, I did not worry. 

I did not get sad. 

God was kind to bless me with the workload so that I could still sleep at night because I was too tired to worry. God was merciful to bless with limited time for myself so that I could spend that time being happy. 

Alhamdulillah. 

Thank you Allah. 

 Thank you Allah for the good news. 

I just don't think that I have the strength to go through that grim and terrible ordeal again....