Wednesday, September 2, 2009

unfair expectations

it's hard not to take it personally,
when its my personality that you're attacking.

it's hard to be professional,
when i just started learning to be one.

it's hard not to fall down and crumble,
when i'm expecting you to back me up.

it's hard to stay positive,
when you're overwhelmed by the negatives.

it's hard to be inclusive,
when you yourself,didn't understand our differences.

it's hard to see the truth,
when you're sugarcoating everything.

it's hard not to say it's hard,
when you are being unreasonably unfair.

it's hard not to cry,
when it really hurts.

7 comments:

Faraha Hamidi said...

what happen la sha.. =(

Miss Dels said...

well said, sha. i hope she'll read this! hehe.. :p
be strong babe. dont be too down bcoz of her. of course u can do better. she just doesnt realize it yet.. *hugs*

hafiz CHouJi said...

I don't know what happened in crystal-clear details, but I think I managed to understand the gist of it from last night's conference at Everton after tarawih.


My words to you, dear friend: Don't let this thing drag you down too much. It's always okay to cry, but don't wallow in tears and self-pity. When you think the pain has subsided, stand up tall and walk again. But don't take too long of the sweet time recovering. And do not limp, do not afraid of stumbling again. Take little pride in yourself, and continue to be the self you want to develop and wanting to be. Who knows yourself and that self you want to be better? It is YOU, and nobody else. So, have faith in yourself. Because if you don't, then who else will? :')

My personal opinion: I have lost my respect for this "expert and pro teacher", which is LW, who told us during briefing session that TE is for our own personal teaching development and during debriefing session, mediated us to discuss about teaching-learning stuffs: of what encourages/blocks learning, the role of a teacher, etc. Yet her actions and her "expert skills and techniques" downgraded us, very much contradicting the very things she wants to make an "expert and pro teacher" out of us. *sigh*

But yeah, Sha. As Dely said, you can do better. And never stop asking help from Allah, okay? :')

Sha said...

farah: my observer said something pretty harsh and unreasonable yesterday. nothing to do with my teaching. that part was ok.oh well, these things help you to become a better person eventually *sigh*

dely: tgh2 geram adelah time terbaik utk berkarya :P. geram gile kn dely kn?smlm mmg down gle la. n ubat terbaik utk down adelah tdo n bebel kt or laen puas2. alhamdulillah harini kt skolah ok la. lg bersemangat kot. ak kn pantang dicabar.thank u 4 ur support :) tomorrow last day!! wheee!!!

chouji: thank u so much for ur words of wisdom.hehe. yeah, i'm done with wallowing in self pity. yesterday was just too hard. it was unexpected really. i never thought that i will have problems with that particular person but i guess u never know aye? doing pretty well now.i stand firm on what i believe in. criticism, though it hurts like crazy,helps you grow.it's a real eye-opener.
tp org2 yg ckp x serupe bikin ni mmg menyakitkan jiwa. practise what you preach laaa.

Miss Dels said...

aku mule2 xdela geram pon. tp pas dgr cte2 psl korang, aku ttbe jd geram gak laa.. mcm x sangke la omputeh pon reti bermuke2 rupenye. haha.. xpe sha. esok je last g skolah. pastu bleh mkn cinta. sejak ade TE ni, aku mcm xde life. x kua2 city pon. haihhh~ haha.. :p

comot said...

cikgu sha, forget everything by having another crush k?
hehehehe

Happy last day TE!

Faraha Hamidi said...

it's okay sha, these things happen. and yeah, u learnt. =) it's a good thing that u took it positively. some might coward away but u didn't. hehe. if she xnampak ur talent, i do! =D sha is the best! yeayyy!! xD