It's almost the end of 2014

Time is running out

And I am definitely freaking out

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

change

It occurs to me

that everyone  has changed

and it bothers me so much.
I feel kind of disconnected with them.
I don't know what to talk about anymore.
I don't know what to ask anymore.
Some of the changes made me feel inferior to them
and very unhappy with my current self.





But then again, 

I have changed too.

Hope is the thing with feathers

HOPE is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words,
And never stops at all,
And sweetest in the gale is heard;	5
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.
I ’ve heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;	10
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

Emily Dickinson

sejuta harapan

Ya Allah terangilah gelap hitam hatiku
Ya Allah sucikanlah hati ikhlas untukMu
Ya Allah terangilah gelap hitam jalanku
Ya Allah sucikanlah hati ikhlas untukMu



I miss being in usrah...
:'(

oh the perks!

Oh the perks of being in a relationship with a pilot.
I guess I really should  get used to feel uneasy and nervous everytime he has to work.

My thoughts and prayers are with the passengers and families of flight MH370 and MH17.

It's been a sad year indeed for our country :(

quit

work has been really crazy right now
I honestly do not have the strength to continue my studies while working at the same time.
I just want to quit.
Please?

When can I see you again?

When can my heart beat again?