prisoner of words

P.O.W
By Alicia Keys

I'm a prisoner
Of words unsaid
Just lonely feelings
Locked away in my head

I trap myself further
Every time I stay quiet
I should start to speak
But I stop and stay silent
And now I've made
My own hard bed
Inside a prison of words unsaid
I am a P.O.W.

Not a prisoner of war
A prisoner of words
Like a soldier
I'm a fighter
Yet only a puppet
Mostly I only say
What you wanna hear
Could you take it if I came clear?
Or would you rather see me
Stoned on a drug of complacency and compromise
M.I.A.

I guess that's what I am
Scraping this cold earth
For a piece of myself
For peace in myself
It'd be easier if you put me in jail
If you locked me away
I'd have someone to blame
But these bars of steel are of my making
They surround my mind
And have me shaking
My hands are cuffed behind my back
I'm a prisoner of the worst kind, in fact
A prisoner of compromise

A prisoner of compassion
A prisoner of kindness
A prisoner of expectation
A prisoner of my youth

Run too fast to be old
I've forgotten what I was told
Ain't I a sight to behold?
A prisoner of age dying to be young
To my head is my hand with a gun
And it's cold and it's hard
Cause there's nowhere to run
When you've caged yourself
By holding your tongue
I'm a prisoner
Of words unsaid
Just lonely feelings
Locked away in my head
It's like solitary confinement
Every time I stay quiet
I should start to speak
But I stop and stay silent
And now I've made
My own hard bed
Inside a prison of words unsaid

mere mortals

even at a time like this

would you still deny the existence of a greater power than yours?

even at a time like this

would you still choose not to beg for forgiveness?

even at a time like this

would you still feel proud?

would you still feel that you are all high and mighty?

even at a time like this

would you still turn a blind eye to the fact that without His mercy,

we are hopeless and worthless being?

now i'm feeling so fly like a G6 like a G6 like a G6

sorta

this is supposed to be a sad and depressing entry where i will rant non stop about growing old and resent the society's expectations and responsibilities that comes along with age

but then again, i always rant in this blog.

my entries are usually bleak or with dark undertones.

i barely write about happy stuff (if there's any)

so since i had a really good birthday

i'll write about sunshines and rainbows

with pictures for a change

so we celebrated my birthday on the 18th because..

-i work on the 19th (scrubbing off people's toilet on your birthday is not fun at all)

-and a certain someone is off to japan on the 19th *super jealous*

eny made her super famous roast chicken

lots and lots of food from beloved friends. oh terharu. (sorry dely ak xjumpe gmba cake tanpa muka ak yg annoying itu)

and of course presents! you know you're old-er when your friends start to give you gold necklaces and handbags.

and on the 19th we went out for kaffee eis super-delicious ice cream!

telephone box. just because.

tsb arena

random painting on the sidewalk

queens wharf

blue sky + blue sea +great weather= awesome day!

and then we went to my favourite place in wellington : the te papa museum (yes, i LOVE this place! call me a dork. i dont care)

where we rode on their awesome rides and made our own wall of fame (or shame?)

overall, i never thought that turning 23 would be so much fun!

i was ready to be all melancholic and depressed (coz im dramatic like that)

but hey, you'll never be sad

not when you have your fantastic friends around!

thanks guys for throwing a not-so-surprise-birthday-party for me and for the fun (and adventurous) day out!

this is probably the last time we'll ever get to celebrate it together and this is definitely one birthday i'll never forget

xoxo

2011

it's 2011 already

6 months (more or less) till i bid wellington adieu

after watching this video,

i've become more reluctant to go back.

seriously, how narrow minded can you be??

it's disgusting

how to educate them?

i wonder..

...but if I can be allowed a mediocre generalization, don’t pointless things have a place, too, in this far-from-perfect world? Remove everything pointless from an imperfect life and it’d lose even its imperfection

Haruki Murakami

Sputnik Sweetheart

take me to the end of the rainbow

i could really use some extra $$$ right now.

not up for anything really

2 hours left

500 words to go

malas tau x malas????????