Humility

 I feel like I've failed in doing my duty as a mentor to my students

I'm obsessed with making sure that they get 3.5 pointers every semester

And they delivered

But I have failed to make sure that they get great pointers in moral and values as well

I was really proud of my mentees and the fact that I have the most number of mentees who get 3.5 pointers and above. I kept bragging to my friends about it.

But lo and behold, there's always a reason why you should stay humble.

Be humble.

And always check the wellbeing of your students

Really look at your students

Note their appearance and what might have changed over time

Always be approachable and make time for them 

Be humble

I wish I was more observant..

rezeki and jodoh

So yeah,  I turned 27 earlier this week
Alhamdulillah
I went out for tea with my friends, my ex students surprised me at Teluk Chempedak, my current mentees also made a surprise (party?) for me and as usual, a warm celebration at home with the family and nice dinner outside.
Birthdays are a great deal for me. I love celebrating them and it's great to know that others understood how important  it is to me. hehe.

As you turned older, well, there are certain expectations on you
the most common one is obviously, you should be married/getting married by now

Yeah, I understand why they are concerned, but it's not the end of the world if I'm not married by now is it?
I know friends who are really worried and unhappy for not having a spouse yet (myself included sometimes)
I have people who keeps on provoking me and suggesting that I have an irresponsible boyfriend ( I bet you don't know him at all to begin with)
I have people that I know who are miserable coz they're not married yet and they want me to be miserable and stressed out as well.
But do I really have to?
Well, you might say I'm not really in the position to say anything since I am in relationship with someone.
but you don't think that being in a relationship for years and not moving anywhere while others who just met for a few months and immediately got married is also frustrating at times?


My late father had a colleague who's been really nice to our family, especially my mom. She's been involved in so many charity work. When she's in Kuantan, she always made a point to come and visit my Mom and bear us with nice gifts. She even gave my mom  a large sum of money when she heard thatmy mom is going for Umrah. She's a really nice lady aaaand she's still single.
She just came to our house a couple of days ago and made me realized how much time I have wasted moping around and getting worried about when will I get married.

You see, rezeki comes in many different shapes and forms.
Not being married is also a rezeki.
Rezeki masa as you have all the time in the world to focus on yourself and also for you to do good things.
like you can do charity work outside since you don't have to be at home and you know, do the things that wives have to do.
you can join usrah, you can do part time work, or part time study.
you can spend time with your parents
Or being able to laze around on weekends and not having to feel guilty about it is a rezeki as well.
not many people have that privillege.
 It's how you use your free time that's important. Being all mopey and miserable is simply just a waste of time

We also have rezeki in terms of money
Like how my dad's friend can simply give some money to us
some people cannot afford to give money to others as they have their own responsibilities and family that they need to take care of
when you're not attached to anyone, this is the time when you can donate money for charities or give a large sum to your parents
Well, you still can do it even when you have a family because you wont lose anything by donating to others
But perhaps when you are still single, you can give MORE.

and freedom is also rezeki
You don't have to ask permission from anyone to go out and do whatever you like
You can go shopping on a Wednesday if you want to
You don't have to please your in laws yet (this is one of my greatest fear. hahaha)
You can wear shawl lilit2 smpai tercekik if you want to. you don't have to give in to the husband who prefers you in tudung bawal =P

Some of the things I listed may seemed petty to you
But those are the things that we often take for granted
To all the single ladies out there, rejoice!
Stop being negative!
This is your rezeki
Be happy and make full use of your time!
and for those who are married, cherish your husband, that's your rezeki as well
you might have to lose some of your freedom, but you gained something else in return

Life is fair if you see it in a positive light
and there's always a reason for things to be in a certain way


You complained about being older and not having anyone by your side,
but what have you done in your life?
what have you contributed to your family, society and religion?
have you contributed enough?
can you do more?
there's always work that needs to be done
Let's improve ourselves first and pray that our jodoh will be on our way.

Counting blessings

Meeting old friends are fun

But most of the time I would come back home feeling like a loser for not having

my own car, my own house, my own little family and also for making the least money among them.

On the brighter side,

I dont have to pay car installments, 

I live at home where my Mom do my laundry and where delicious, healthy, home cooked meals are always available, where the furnitures are complete and comfortable,

and I can still be selfish and laze around on weekends, not having to impresss anyone or cater to anybody's needs and my workplace is just next to my housing area, no traffic jams, 

Besides, I love to teach and I still get paid on top of 3 weeks semester break, TWICE a year.

Yup

In a way, my life is good

There's nothing to be embarassed about

Be grateful, self.

Mindless judgement

It's sad to know people who only know how to talk bad about other people

There's always something wrong with everyone

Something to criticize

Even meaningless point such as she's pretty tp pkai tudung senget. wth

How is that important?jealous much?

I mean cmon, you're not perfect yourself

And it bothers me that you dragged me in as well 

Just leave me out of it ok

And it bothers me that people think it's ok to print screen private conversations and share it with other people

Would YOU like to see your conversation being shared with other people?

Things can be minsinterpreted and taken out of context

Please la

Xpyhla nk malukan org lain

You jaga aib orang, insyaAllah aib you juga terjaga

A reminder to myself as well

Cakap kosong

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