Sunday, December 14, 2014

13/12/14

Today is the 2nd annivessary of my father's passing

I still couldn't get over the fact that I didn't get the chance to say goodbye to him
It still hurts. It still hurts.


May his soul rest in peace
Till we meet again in Jannah insyaAllah
Amin

Al Fatihah

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Friends

Sometimes I wonder
Do I really have a friend?
Or am I just an afterthought?

Friday, December 5, 2014

Adapting to a new environment

During my school years
I've changed schools twice
Once when I was in standard 2
Another one when I was in Form 3

Changing school was hard
Fitting in was hard
I remembered feeling isolated
And getting stared at in school
It was uncomfortable
And scary
So I decided to made a scene 
I didn't want to ride on the school van
My mom had to drag me but I just keep crying
So I did get a day off
But staying at home and getting endless scold from Mom wasnt that great either
In the end, you just have to be strong and face your fear

Moving in to a new place,
A new community,
A new group is really hard.
They already have their own established members, their own rules and norms.
As the latest addition to the group,
The best way to fit in is just by keeping your head low
Stay quiet
And just observe.
Get the other members to like you.
Get them to know you.
Get them to respect u.
Slowly.
It takes time.
And during that time, try to improve yourself to get them to acknowledge you 
For example, study hard and be number 1. Suddenly everyone knows u and want to be your friend.

It took me a year to fit in.
By then, I would have gained enough trust and respect by my peers 
Instead of a follower, I was their new leader (yes, I have always been a leader. Thats why im so bossy. Heh)


My point is
When you are a new member of a group
Take your time to fit in
Yes it is hard
Yes it is challenging
But be patient
Remember, YOU are the one who just came in while others have bonded and have their own agreement on how things are
You should learn first, without being intrusive
YOU are the stranger
If you want people to like you,
You have to learn to respect others first
Follow their rhythm
You're not being a hypocrite
That's how human beings are
We change according to our environment
That doesnt mean that you have lost your identity.

So if you are the latest addition to the family
Please, be respectful
Mind your manners
You think it's easy for people to accept you after your intrusive entrance?
Think again.

Thursday, December 4, 2014

Missing Papa

Short, small and balding Chinese men always remind me of my late father.

This place is full of men that fits that description.

I miss you terribly, Papa.

Al- Fatihah



Me and my Papa at my Graduation Dinner 😂