Friday, January 29, 2010

we all need to take a break and slow down

'But I like turning the pages… am I a dinosaur?'
the best remark i've encountered regarding the hype surrounding the iPad
LOL


but then again, i'm no technology expert
but as a consumer, i dont think i'll buy it

Monday, January 25, 2010

a little pick me up

for every meaningful(sort of) situation in my life,
there's at least a song to accompany it.
a theme song.

the theme songs for the moment are:
hgh

Ain't nothing gonna break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down
Oh no, I've got to keep on moving
Ain't nothing gonna break my stride
I'm running and I won't touch ground
Oh no, I've got to keep on moving


and of course,
a song from the amazing john mayer ( i dont care if he's a douche in real life, his songs are fantastic!)



say what you need to say ( repeat a gazillion times!like a mantra)

this is not his best song.
i used to hate it as it used to be overplayed on the radio,
but i'm finally able to relate to this song ;P


Wednesday, January 20, 2010

stating the obvious

i am emotional
fullstop

i know that exposing your private life in your blogs is not such a great idea
fullstop

keeping a diary is way safer than keeping a blog
fullstop

people would use your blog against you
fullstop

fine
i'll try to talk about general stuff through my own view(of course) from now on
(that was the initial intention of keeping this blog but i guess i've got too caught up with myself)

hello old diary. long time no see.



love-hate

in this world
not everyone likes to see you happy
even if they said they wished all the happiness in the world for you, sometimes they dont really mean it
words are just that.. words
we've been accustomed or programmed to say such things
good words for good things.
like good luck dear!
all the best!
may your dreams come true , i'll miss you yada yada yada
do you have to really mean it?
of course not
those are just nice words to write on a birthday card, facebook statuses and so on
people expect to see those words on certain occasions
hence, others just mechanically wrote down those things without really thinking about it.
sometimes. not all the time.

bad words on the other hand,
boy, do people mean it when they say such bad things.
people wont naturally say they hate something if they didnt really hate that thing do they?
bad words usually come straight from the heart.instantly.
people become very passionate when they're on a heated debate, or when they are really pissed off
ahh.. what's my point really??

the thing is, some people just can't stand seeing you happy
it's just their nature i guess
oh well, that's life

sticks and stones may break my bones,
but words will never hurt me ?
sorry honey,
they do.







p/s-my 22nd birthday was awesome, for the most part, that is.


Monday, January 18, 2010

kenapa? why?doshte?



kenapa
mengapa
kenapa
kala di perantauan
sanggup bersusah payah
tonggang tonggek di jalanan
hilang malu
hilang geli mencium tanah
untuk sujud menghadapNya

tiba di negeri sendiri
surau kiri kanan
rumah pun selesa
air nyaman untuk berwudhuk
tidak akan menggigil pun berwudhuk
siapa hina kamu solat?
siapa persoalkan kenapa perlu solat?
siapa halang kamu dari bersolat?
tiada siapa
tapi
oh sungguh beratnya!
oh sungguh malasnya!
oh sungguh liatnya!
oh nantilah dulu..
ah lambat lagi!
ah betapa sukarnya diri ini untuk solat!
kenapa?
kenapa?
kenapa??

mungkin ini ujianMu Tuhan..

best friends are forever indeed



this week i had been busy catching up with friends
the new ones (scratch that. it's been almost 5 years since we've known each other) and the old ones
i mean really old ones
like the ones that you've been friends with since standard 2
i guess i was so excited and i talked and talked till i lose my voice
i sounded like a rockstar for now
give me a ring and i'll entertain you:P
but losing my voice was worth it
i finally get the chance to meet my primary besties:my BFF P and the ever so lovely Q

it's been 10 years since we last meet each other (Q went to live in Qatar since 2004 and P was well, she's in JB. that's like hours away from the magical forest of kuantan)
i was touched that they're willing to come to my place for a sleepover
would you sleep at the house of someone you haven't met in 10 years?
i doubt i would
but that just proves how tight we are
how comfortable we are with each other though much have changed since standard 6
(speaking face to face is wayyy different than having conversations on the phone)

though all of us are in different places and different field now,
it amazes me how similar we are in many ways
lke the way we carry ourselves and well, our other relationships
i guess now i can clearly see why parents are very concerned about the friends of their kids
coz they will gradually, influenced the rest of the children's lives

i am thankful for having wonderful people as my friends
it doesnt matter whether you guys are 'the olds ones' or 'the new ones'
everyone has a place in my heart ^_^

"A friend is a person with whom I may be sincere. Before him I may think aloud."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson-

looking forward to meet the mgs girls
please come back soon!!











Wednesday, January 13, 2010

oh! the irony



isn't it ironic
when you're thousands miles apart from your family
they didn't care about where you're going,
with whom you're travelling with etc
travelling 8 hours by bus?
ok.
you're boarding the plane alone?
ok, that's fine. (well of course it is pa! *rolling eyes*)

but when you're right in front of their eyes,
they getting all worked up over stuff like this.
puh-lease mum and dad (esp. u Dad)
i'm not a schoolkid anymore
i'm already in my 20s and am experiencing quarter life crisis
haha

what you just read above was my original post
i was thinking of publishing this before i began my journey to terengganu for the wedding of eny's brother
but i didnt
as i had a feeling, what if something went wrong?
wouldnt it be weird that after i post this somewhat cocky entry,
something bad actually happened to me??

and it did
sorta

so the bus i took to tganu from the magical forest of kuantan was on Friday, at 8.45 am
freaking early i tell u
mom dropped me off at the bus sation like, 10 minutes before departure time and went off to the market
when i got there, the bus was empty
and i thought, oh, maybe it's because the driver isnt here yet
this group of people around me(like 1o of them) will ride the same bus with me
wrong.
dead wrong.
throughout the whole 3 1/2 hour journey to tganu,
i was the only one in the bus
imagine how shocked, flabbergasted,dumfounded, bewildered i was when i found out that i'm the only passenger??
i nearly fainted
yes, i am a drama queen
and i've texted almost everyone i know about my whereabouts
are you freaking kidding me??
alone with the quite young bus driver??
remember the suhaiza incident?( i think that's her name)
of course i was paranoid
i have every rights to be paranoid (i think)

needless to say
i made it to tganu
all safe and sound
thanks to concerned friends who checked up on me almost every half and hour
i now you guys love me
haha
and big thanks to the bus driver who did his job honestly and efficiently (sort of. why did he have to stop for a smoke in Marang is beyond me)
and kudos to him for managing to resist the temptation in the form of the oh so gorgeous yours truly
LOL

anyhoo
the moral of the story is:
1.parents know best. stop arguing with them.
2. trust your instinct.like i said before,i didnt post this earlier because i have a strong feeling that something's going to happen. based on previous experiences as well, i guess my instinct are pretty accurate
3.stop putting labels on people. just because one bus driver did a bad thing, that doesnt mean that all of them are bad. honest bus drivers are awesome! ^_^ (oh teringat abg bus 99. wink to the mgs girls)

the nerve wrecking journey was worth it
i had fun with the girls
and the wedding was quite unique- they had the chinese lion dance as well as the usual kompang
1malaysia i tell u
haha

and never wear white to someone else's wedding
people will mistaken you as the bride
LOL



Sunday, January 3, 2010

why do they have to go to school??

'school is for miserable losers kakak'(kamiel, 2009)

and i'll be a sore loser too,
waiting for you guys to come home everyday from school while i'm at home with nothing to do
~sigh~

forgive me dear friends,
for staying low for the past month
forgive me for not wanting to go to your place
and for not replying your messages
i've been busy
spending as much time as i could with the lil ones

mom said i've become more childish than before
well i guess that's because i've just realised how precious these moments are
this is my last chance
to be with them
while they're still young, innocent, cute, and listen to their big sis
in other words, before they hit puberty
haha
i'm definitely not going to waste this golden chance
so there you go mom
that's the reason why i didn't mind spending my time playing hide and seek (with this size, how the hell did i find a place to hide?)
i did whatever i can to amuse the lil ones
after all, i am their kakak
i had my share of fun too ^_______^

now with the school term is starting soon,
what should i do with all my free time??
oh wait
maybe i'll just sleep until they come home
yeah, that's a great plan (imagine the look on mom's face)

i'll definitely gonna miss this guy
why do you have to go to the boarding school???
kakak will go nuts without you ( but i guess i'm nuts when i'm with you too)

good luck dear ototo kun!
please come home soon! who's gonna wash the dishes??








Friday, January 1, 2010

new year

i dont have any new resolutions for this year
heck, i never keep one
2009 was ok
i think
definitely not the best year of my life
oh well
looking forward to what the new year will bring
perhaps a new pair of shoes? haha

my birthday is coming soon
keep that in mind
haha

anyhoo
happy new year
be good :)